Oct 7, 2026
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3 min read
The costume changes. The show doesn't stop.
Oct 5, 2026
Total autonomy was the whole point. Turns out nobody telling you what to do also means nobody telling you when you're full of it.
Oct 3, 2026
That's not discipline. That's a much smaller life than you think you're living.
Oct 2, 2026
Four thousand dollars on a silent retreat because I couldn't sit alone with my thoughts for ten minutes. The credit card became the coping mechanism.
Oct 1, 2026
Finished by 10am in Puerto Escondido, then sat at the laptop three more hours. Performing for an audience that didn't exist.
Sep 30, 2026
4 min read
And this one doesn't even pay.
Sep 28, 2026
Not the scammers. Not the obvious ones. It's the way suspicion gets into everything — friends, family, someone you're seeing.
Sep 26, 2026
A $2 plate of chicken adobo in a Long Beach parking lot. Fifteen years later I still remember every bite.
Sep 25, 2026
'I'm busy' costs nothing and protects everything. 'I don't want to' sounds like betrayal, especially when your parents never once chose themselves.
Sep 24, 2026
Sold the company, moved near the ocean, dropped every bad client. The discomfort stayed and had nowhere to point anymore.
Sep 23, 2026
They're pressure valves. They only glow because you can't touch them.
Sep 21, 2026
Nothing in my life needs me to be anywhere, with anyone, for longer than I feel like. I thought that was freedom. I'm less sure now.
